Hello everyone, it’s been a while since I’ve written a post, but after a couple of poorly days in bed, I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting on 2017, and decided to share my thoughts on the year, alongside my goals for 2018. I’m not one to set resolutions, but a bit of new year inspiration never hurt anyone.
One of the highlights of my year was landing a dream placement with a dream company of mine. However, when I rang my parents to tell them, all they had to say was ‘when will you be home?’. No ‘congratulations’. No ‘well done’. No ‘we’re so proud of you’. On the other hand, when I told my friends they were delighted for me, and my uni flat mates even decorated the flat and threw a little party for me when I got back. In 2018 I’m going to stop attempting to seek validation from my parents when I know I will never achieve it, and instead strengthen my relationships with those who I know support me.
This year I am going to do things to make myself proud, not to make others proud. I have no need to impress others; instead I want to do the things that I want to do; the things that make me happy, and work towards the goals that I aspire to achieve. Those that love me will be proud of me for my accomplishents, and I am going to learn to allow myself to be proud of what I have achieved.
After years of setting weight loss goals, this year I have realised that the body I aspire to have is in fact toned and muscular, so losing weight is going to get me nowhere! Instead, this year i am focusing on the way my body looks and feels, rather than the number on the scales. I want to eat healthily to feel good, and exercise to feel powerful.
Last year I learnt that change can be scary, but also a wonderful thing. After a load of things didn’t go to plan, I was forced to return to halls in my second year of uni, with a new group of people that I didn’t meet until move in day. However, I have met the most amazing people, including Emily, who I now consider my best friend. In 2018, I will not be disheartened when things go wrong, for I have learnt that the best things in the world can come out of the worst situations. I will not be afraid of change and I am excited for what is to come.
But most of all this year I want to have fun. I am an extremely hard working and grades focused person, but I have so much planned for 2018 and I want to feel free and love the life I live. I’m going to relax more and stress less, because I know I am capable of achieving the grades I want, and enjoying myself at the same time.
In March, I will see one of my favourite artists in concert. In April, I will go on holiday (maybe to Disneyland!) with my best friend from uni. In June, I will move to London and start my year placement with a global beauty company. In August/September I will go on holiday with my best friends from home. And so so much more that I haven’t planned yet.
2018 is going to be my year and I can’t wait.