Knowing Your Self Worth

One of the most important lessons I’ve learnt recently is to know my own self-worth. I’ve been through a lot of knocks in life, as has nearly everyone, and it can be hard to pick yourself back up and not blame yourself for whatever’s happened. However, knowing your own worth means that you know when you’re not being treated how you deserve, and when you need to get yourself out of a situation.

I didn’t have the best school years; I wasn’t exactly bullied, but I also wasn’t liked by the majority of people. Part of this was due to being ‘too nerdy’. At school, it is much too often considered a bad thing to be clever and top of the class. It is looked at as boring, and many fail to appreciate that people who work hard and achieve good grades do also have a personality and have fun outside of their school work. Then there was the fact that I was also not considered to meet the definition of pretty. By that, I don’t even mean that other people had better natural beauty, merely that I did not wear ‘enough’ makeup to be ‘pretty’ or ‘cool’. Perhaps this issue was heightened because I attended a girls school, but the fact that for my first couple of years at secondary school, I had no interest in makeup caused even fewer people to bother to make an effort with me.

However, I’m not saying this to put out a sob story. I’m saying this because I now have a job with the world’s leading beauty company. Me?! Me that was constantly put down for not being beautiful, not caring about my appearance and not wanting to make an effort to look good now has a job in the beauty industry?! Crazy stuff eh. It’s made me realise that the opinions of all those people in school were, to put it plainly, just wrong. I am beautiful, and I am worth it (guess the company).

I have also recently become single again after spending a couple of months in a relationship where I really wasn’t happy. At the time, I guess I thought I was. I wasn’t treated badly by any means, but I just felt that very little effort was being made on the other person’s behalf and they seemed unbothered by whatever I had to say. I wasn’t made to feel special, but because I was invested in the relationship, I didn’t want to leave. I’m not a quitter and I wanted to make it work, but I learnt that not everything is under my control, and I can’t make another person feel for me the way that I felt for them.

Although sometimes I feel like I wasted away a good few months that I could have spent searching for better, I have to remind myself of how much I learnt in that time. I learnt not to settle. I learnt how I deserve to be treated. I learnt that I should listen to my friends when they tell me I deserve more. I learnt that I am worth more than a person telling me I’m too much work, because for the right person, being with me will be far from a burden.

Never, ever, ever let yourself believe that you are the problem in a situation or relationship. The right people will never make you feel like that, and that’s who you should spend your time with and energy on. If you haven’t found those people yet, keep searching. During my first year of university, I struggled heavily with finding people I connected with, but I’m proud of myself for how I handled the situation. I didn’t blame other people for not wanting to be friends with me – that’s fine, you can’t be friends with everyone, they’d clearly decided I wasn’t their type of person, and if they cut me off then equally they’re not my type of person either. I made my way around sooo many different friendship groups, before finding out that the people on my sports team were who I had been looking for all along. I now have an amazingly strong group of friends, and I couldn’t be more thankful for their endless love, support and laughter.

You are smart, you are beautiful and you are more than the voice telling you that you’re not good enough – whether that voice is the one inside your head or the voice of someone else. Never lose faith in who you are, and don’t change yourself for anyone.

Em x

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Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018

Hello everyone, it’s been a while since I’ve written a post, but after a couple of poorly days in bed, I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting on 2017, and decided to share my thoughts on the year, alongside my goals for 2018. I’m not one to set resolutions, but a bit of new year inspiration never hurt anyone.

One of the highlights of my year was landing a dream placement with a dream company of mine. However, when I rang my parents to tell them, all they had to say was ‘when will you be home?’. No ‘congratulations’. No ‘well done’. No ‘we’re so proud of you’. On the other hand, when I told my friends they were delighted for me, and my uni flat mates even decorated the flat and threw a little party for me when I got back. In 2018 I’m going to stop attempting to seek validation from my parents when I know I will never achieve it, and instead strengthen my relationships with those who I know support me.

This year I am going to do things to make myself proud, not to make others proud. I have no need to impress others; instead I want to do the things that I want to do; the things that make me happy, and work towards the goals that I aspire to achieve. Those that love me will be proud of me for my accomplishents, and I am going to learn to allow myself to be proud of what I have achieved. 

After years of setting weight loss goals, this year I have realised that the body I aspire to have is in fact toned and muscular, so losing weight is going to get me nowhere! Instead, this year I am focusing on the way my body looks and feels, rather than the number on the scales. I want to eat healthily to feel good, and exercise to feel powerful.

Last year I learnt that change can be scary, but also a wonderful thing. After a load of things didn’t go to plan, I was forced to return to halls in my second year of uni, with a new group of people that I didn’t meet until move in day. However, I have met the most amazing people, including Emily, who I now consider my best friend. In 2018, I will not be disheartened when things go wrong, for I have learnt that the best things in the world can come out of the worst situations. I will not be afraid of change and I am excited for what is to come.

But most of all this year I want to have fun. I am an extremely hard working and grades focused person, but I have so much planned for 2018 and I want to feel free and love the life I live. I’m going to relax more and stress less, because I know I am capable of achieving the grades I want, and enjoying myself, at the same time.

In March, I will see one of my favourite artists in concert. In April, I will go on holiday (maybe to Disneyland!) with my best friend from uni. In June, I will move to London and start my year placement with a global beauty company. In August/September I will go on holiday with my best friends from home. And so so much more that I haven’t planned yet.

2018 is going to be my year and I can’t wait.

Em x

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What I Read on Holiday

First of, sorry for the lack of photos in this post, but as a Kindle lover, it wasn’t like I had a stack of books to photograph. Last week I got back from a week of sun, sea, sand and cocktails, and of course, this gave me a lot of time to indulge in a good book. In this post I’ll be sharing my thoughts on each of the books I read.

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The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson (Paperback £6.29 – Amazon)

This is a book that took me a while to get into, in fact I’d given up on it before and had to start again. However, once you get through the first quarter, it becomes so gripping. I think the problem is that at the start, there’s too many characters to introduce and the links between them are too complicated to understand, but once you get it, you really really get it and I couldn’t wait to finish. Overall, the was a really good book with a great storyline, but isn’t the best for beach reading as it does require a lot of concentration.

Geek Girl: All That Glitters by Holly Smale (Paperback £3.85 – Amazon)

These books are definitely aimed at girls younger than me, but I absolutely love them and would recommend them to any woman under 25. They’re so funny, such an easy read, and totally relatable to slightly geeky girls like me.

Geek Girl: Head Over Heels by Holly Smale (Paperback £3.85 – Amazon)

Again, this is another in the same series and I loved it just as much. The books definitely link together, so you do need to read them in order. I read books 4 and 5 on this holiday, having read the others last year, so I already knew I would enjoy these books.

Pleasure Island by Anna-Lou Weatherley (Paperback £8.99 – Amazon)

I haven’t finished this book yet, so I can’t give a full review, but so far I’m really enjoying it. It’s the perfect holiday read, which a mix of romance, mystery and scandal. It’s really like nothing I’ve read before, but I think it would appeal to such a wide range of people.

And that’s everything! I hope you enjoyed this post, and let me know in the comments if you have any book recommendations, as I’m always looking for more books to add to my reading list.

Em x

My Disneyland Adventure

As you may already know from some of my previous posts, a few weeks ago I got back from a dreamy girls holiday to Disneyland. We had 5 super busy days of roller-coasters, character meet and greets, and some amazing food. I took thousands of photos (literally – i came back with 2198), and today I’ll be sharing my favourites in a photo diary type post.

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Of course, our arrival at Disneyland began with all the typical photos in front of the castle. We had amazing weather for the whole of our holiday, which meant all of the pictures are so pretty. After the initial photoshoot, we headed for It’s A Small World, one of the classic disney favourites.

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Following the excitement of our first ride, we went on Space Mountain (one of the bigger roller-coasters in the park), and grabbed a fast pass to skip the queue for Buzz Lightyear’s Laser Blast,  a really fun shooting ride.

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Next, we headed over to Fantasyland, and much to our surprise, the queue to meet Mickey Mouse was only 5 minutes, so we just had to do it!

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Then we spent the rest of the day going on as many rides as possible around the Disneyland Park.

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We had dinner at a buffet inside the park, and I somehow managed to eat 7 puddings – oops! As the sun began to set, we headed to the beautiful Newport Bay Club hotel, which was only a 15 minute walk from the park.

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The next day, we woke up and headed straight back to the main Disneyland Park to meet a couple of characters, including Goofy, and then went to the Hollywood Studios park to try out some of the rides there.

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We watched a really cool stunt show, which was based on the Cars movie, and then headed back to the hotel to make use of the swimming pool. In the evening, we had an amazing dinner at the Rainforest Cafe. We then headed back to the Disneyland Park, and went on a few rides, while we waited for it to get dark so we could watch the Disney Magic fireworks display. It turned out to be so good that we stayed up again to watch it on our final night! It’s an amazing show, with parts of classic Disney films projected onto the castle, music, water displays, and of course some incredible fireworks!

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I don’t have many pictures of the third day, mostly because we spent the entire day going on as many rides as possible! On the fourth day, we got up super early and made it our mission to meet as many characters as we could. Here are some of my favourite snaps.

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As you can see, meeting Winnie the Pooh was a definite highlight for me! In the afternoon, we found a good spot on Main Street, and sat down to watch the Disney Parade, which was so good and made me feel like an excitable child again.

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Disneyland were running a special ‘Frozen Summer Fun’ promotion while we were there, so there was also a special little Elsa and Anna parade later in the day.

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As the sun began to set, we took even more pictures in front of the castle, and then found a good spot to wait for the fireworks to start.

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I don’t have many pictures of our last day, as it was much shorter and I had pretty much photographed every inch of the park by then! However, I did get some very cute ones on this little boat ride, which also happened to be our final ride of the trip.

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And sadly, that’s the end of our adventure. I hope you enjoyed this little insight into my trip! It was honestly one of the best weeks of my life, and I can’t wait until I get a chance to go back!

Until next time,

Em x

My Birthday Wishlist

My birthday is coming up towards the end of August, so I thought a fun little post would be to show you what’s on my birthday wishlist. Obviously I don’t expect to receive all of this, but the majority of any money I’m given will be spent on these items as it’s what I’m currently lusting over.

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  • Spare Badminton Racket (I’m prone to breaking strings on multiple rackets all in one day)
  • Lush The Comforter Bubble Bar (my all time favourite lush product)
  • Lush Butterball Bath Bomb (my second favourite lush product)
  • The Body Shop Lightening Drops (a pale girls essential)
  • Soap and Glory Scrub of Your Life (best body scrub everrr)
  • Ted Baker Sina Earrings (the pearl and crystal ones are so so pretty)
  • Kindle Voyage and Cover
  • Urban Decay Tease Eyeshadow (my eyebrow colour of choice)
  • Sensationail Gel Nail Starter Kit in Raspberry
  • No7 Illuminating Mirror (a makeup essential for uni)
  • Blend Active Smoothie Maker (this is funny because you’ll all think I’m being healthy but I actually want it for making frozen cocktails hahah)
  • Cycling Gloves (I use these for when I’m on the rower at the gym to prevent blisters)
  • Zoeva Face Paint Brush (I’m really excited to try contouring with this)
  • Zoeva Luxe Highlight Brush (I currently apply highlight with my fingers so this really is needed because it’s a habit I’m not proud of)
  • Zoeva Cheek Finish (I need a brush specifically for blush because I’m tired of my powder brush turning pink)
  • Zoeva Small Brush Pouch (none of my makeup bags are long enough to fit my brushes in so this will be super useful for travel)
  • Babyliss Rose Quartz Hairdryer (since I’ll be going to uni in September I really need my own since I currently use my mums)
  • Babyliss Rose Quartz Straighteners (I’ve only ever had one pair so I think it’s time for a new set, and the matching ones to the hairdryer are too pretty to resist)
  • Hotel Chocolat Salted Caramel Puddles (they’re my favourite chocolates ever so why not)

Wow that looks like a lot all written down, but I promise I’m not expecting to receive much of it! I’ll keep you updated after my birthday with what I got, and what I’ll be purchasing as a present to myself.

Em x

Book Review: The Legend Series

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I’m a huge fan of reading, and have been ever since I was a child. Over the summer months, I find I have a lot more time to spend relaxing, and reading is one of my favourite ways to do so. Over the past couple of weeks, I have been making my way through the Legend Trilogy, and I fell so in love with these books that I just had to share them on my blog. They may even be my new favourite series ever!

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I’m a massive fan of dystopian novels (a frightening or unsettling future community – think Hunger Games). Generally, I’ve found that although I really enjoy them, the story lines are always very similar, and it can get very repetitive. With these books, this is not the case; they have the fast moving, gripping adventure that favourites such as Divergent and The Hunger Games have, but a much more unique storyline.

I obviously don’t want to give too much away, but the side stories within these books are so touching. There’s a love story (of course!), issues of illness, and also some friendship/relationship difficulties.

I’m not one to cry at books or films, I find myself to be a bit on an unemotional brick at times (oops), but the end of the final book had me in floods of tears. I was so impressed with the ending, sometimes they can be a huge let down, but I finished Prodigy with a smile on my face and tears running down my cheeks.

An emotional rollercoaster, that I actually think so many different types of people would enjoy, due to the many genres hidden within the back stories. This would probably be classed as young adult fiction, but I would urge anyone from 14 to 114 to give this series a read. 10/10 would recommend.

Em x

Paris Blogs: Day 3

Today’s post is the last of my photos from my Paris trip, which is super sad because it means the adventure is really over! On our final day, we visited the Sacre-Coeur, and then had a bit of a wander around some other, less touristy, parts of the city. We then checked in to the Eurostar, grabbed a quick Starbucks, and then begun the journey home.

 

And that concludes my Paris photo diary! Check out Day 1 here, and Day 2 here. The last of my Paris blogs will be my lookbook, which will be coming next week, so be sure to follow me on bloglovin so you don’t miss it! (link here)

Em x